Like every person on earth, the one thing I seek constantly either consciously or unconsciously is love. I wish to find the peace, joy, hope, encouragement, and bonds which are found in love. I see the times I felt the most loved is when I tried to love first. As I opened my heart to let people in, then I began to see the love which already existed around me.
Unfortunately, I still seek the satisfaction and sense of comfort which love provides. What I mean is, I seek it all the time, even though I know true and pure love isn’t about being happy all the time or having good times all the time. I know that love means experiencing pain and suffering. I know love hurts when what you want is not what is the best for someone and yet you let them go their way. I know love hurts when you give so much and yet people can’t even began to see how much you care for them. I know love means at times being protective and blunt knowing right then you may push them away. But I also know that love frees the soul of every person. I know the love, especially the love of God, will only build the goodness in me and those around me.
At times I may feel as if the love I seek is not returned, but I know the more I endure through whatever love brings, in the end, it will be awesome. I can be selfish, self-serving, self-centered, but I know God is using me in ways I can never imagine to help build Love, real love, in myself and the community around me. It is hard, especially because I expect to see the results in front of me. It would be so hard for me if what I did showed no fruits, but God has been good to show me some of the things He is doing around me.
Honestly, whenever I get down and unhappy, all I need to do is start speaking to someone about what is going on in their lives or explain to someone what is happening in mine and I feel good. I remember one time I was looking through my Facebook photos and I saw all the good times I have had and all the love I have experienced.
Father God, how you Love us? You sent your only Son to redeem us from our own sins. Beloved Son, You gave everything You had and though they rejected You while You were dying on the cross, You still gave Your body, mind, soul and Spirit for us. Holy Spirit, You move through this world without notice. You move to form us and make us stronger, yet we forget You so often and hurt You so much. Triune God, we were created in Your Love, may this Love transform us and this world enabling us to be our fullest selves.
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